So I do not dare find the completeness within me. What would be the purpose of existing if, in fact, I understood the point of it all? I don’t, can’t, will never know it all. That is liberating.
There will be mistakes. There will be demands to which I cannot answer. There will be tears to shed and words to be used as daggers forever. It is our point of existence, our purpose for Being, our mission to which we will never see an end. For every point of evolution there will be another challenge. For every loving embrace a bomb shall fall. For every gentle pat on the back a hard slap in the face. Imagine this life without the one to balance the other. What kind of life would that be if we simply had nothing to strive for?
I became pro-life when I started seeing dead children. I became pro-choice the moment I realized what life would be like without it. I became free the moment I realized I was imprisoned. I became liberal the moment I discovered conservatism was a lie. I became communist the moment I sought to end the thievery. To which box did you just assign these words? To which compartment did you just place my thoughts? To which standard did you judge me at the moment you read simple things entered through a simple keyboard? Did you even realize that I became these things not through matters of my own creation but through the efforts you provided in order to create me as you wanted me to be?
My simple answer is “I am”. Create away…make me who you think I am. Take clay and make it into a vase and it is still clay. You may make it what you want but, in the end, it is still clay. And to clay it shall return someday regardless of what I want it to be. I am meaningless, as are you, except as the Creator, and in being so I am all-powerful. You are as meaningless as I except as the Destroyer, and in being so you are all powerful, as am I. We all have this choice, these billions of small moments that decide who we are although not who we were and not who we will be. Focus a billion times on each of these billion moments as they arise and you will define eternity.
We will make mistakes, and in doing so will continue perfection. We will slap the face of a friend, and in doing so will be the best friend we can be. We will turn our back on our brother and in doing so will provide him a target to focus on. We will ignore our abuser and in doing so turn to face the light of love that surrounds us both. The balance of the moment will never be distorted by the choice we make but exists because of the choice we make. Just love who you are and what you do and allow others to be free as well to be as they are. It’s all just so gloriously perfect.
This post is a result of my midday meditation. It has not be proofread or edited in any way, so please don’t shoot the messenger who can’t speak or spell clearly. Just <3.
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