Broken – A Conversation Between the Saint and the Sinner

The mind does not perceive what it does not know.  What it does not know appears “broken” to it, it disagrees with the notion that others can experience things differently, see things differently or know things differently.  The challenge is to be open to the experience, and accept it for what it is but never lose sight of the importance of Love in the process.  Reactions are human and the physical manifestations of emotion.  We are the sole (or soul) facilitator of how we choose to perceive others in their humanness.

“You are broken” 

“I am.”

“You haven’t changed a bit.”

“So I have always been broken?”

“You have.”

“So, how do I fix myself?”

“You do as I say, act as I act, do as I do. That’s how.”

“And then I am no longer broken?”

“Right, you are then fixed.”

“So, you are not broken?”

“No, I am not. I am normal, I am right.”

“Oh.”

“Make sure you tell your shrink that is how I see you. You are far from fixed.”

“Ok, will you accept me and love me more when I am fixed?”

“I am not sure. I will still think you are broken until you proven to me you aren’t.”

“Um, OK. Will you tell me when you see me differently?”

“Maybe, but I don’t see it has ever happening. Others see you differently. You are happy when you are with them, you are miserable when you are with me.”

“Really? I don’t feel different when I am with you. Sure, I am with you longer, and live my life around you, but I don’t feel differently in my view of things when I am with you.”

“Well, that’s because you are broken.  You smile when you are with them, you are mean when you are with me.”

“Am I mean all of the time, or just when I feel stressed, or aggravation, or overwhelmed, or upset?”

“No, it is all of the time. “

“Every single minute of every single day we are together I am miserable?”

“Yes.”

“Wow, I don’t feel miserable every single minute of every single day.  Are you sure you are right?”

“Yes.  I am normal.  I am right.   You are broken, and need to be fixed.  Someday you will see that I am right, and you will see that you are the same broken boy you have always been.”

“But I feel peaceful and love when I am with you, even in those moments when I feel stressed and aggravated.  Should I not express my emotions to you?  Will that prove that I am fixed.”

“No, you simply should not have those emotions.  Hiding them doesn’t help.”

“So, you never feel overwhelmed and stressed?”

“Sure I do.  But that is different.  Remember, I am normal, you are broken.  Had you not been broken you would see the difference.”

“Oh, ok, I got it.  I need to get normal.”

“Exactly”

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” — Rumi