What you feel is life, what you live is another story.

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There is a thing…

There is a thing, but it is just a thing. It’s one of many things which are like drops of water that have combined to flow as a river. Still this is a big thing.

Yet aren’t they all big things? Every toe stub, every fall, every tear that falls seems to be a big thing in the moment of their arrival. We focus on the droplet and bitch about its temperature as if it is the only droplet in the river. It is the thing after all, the very thing we’ve been dreading and the very thing we’ve tried to avoid.

Damn, I’ve been so stupid. I’ve spend so much of my life so focused on the droplet that I’ve failed to see the river. So much time has been focused on the wounds that I’ve missed the healthy parts. What the hell have I been doing? Wasting my time with fools and frailty has caused me to sacrifice the only thing that has ever truly mattered.

No, for now on I’ll revel in the soreness just as I bask in the comfort. The sadness will be let go just as the joy will be. I will swim and laugh and enjoy the river and honor each and every drop as equal parts of the same stream. I will fucking love it all, even the parts I detest the most.

Ultimately there is a thing and we all have it in common. We live and in that life we will die. What we do with the thing is our choice, and how we do it is our power.

Yeah, I love this thing.

Random Thoughts

Today, a moment in time.

Tomorrow is just a dream.

Yesterday only happened in my mind.

Today is yesterday’s tomorrow and tomorrow’s yesterday. Yesterday, today was just a dream. Tomorrow, today will have happened only in my mind. I realized just now I need to stop wasting time thinking about such things. Today is too important to squander, tomorrow never comes and yesterday cannot be changed.

Cliches…ugh. Sometimes I can’t see the forest for the trees (see what I did there?).


I want to hug you. I feel you beside me but when I turn to touch you my fingertips find only dust. Perhaps this is my mind playing tricks on me, tormenting me for wanting something beyond my control, or teaching me to let go of wants and replace them with reality. What I want is out there, what I have is right beside me.

Now, how to make what I want all that is right here.


Dammit. I’m back to yesterday.

So much I would change. Not because I want to change yesterday but because I want to change today. I wish things were different. I wish life was easier and that I was aware of the luster in the treasures I had found.

Actually, I wouldn’t change a thing. I’ve been blessed with the wisdom of a wild experience and know I can rise above just about any challenge thrown my way. Life does not become easier in the absence of challenge. It becomes easier in surviving them.

Thinking about yesterday creates such confusion. That confusion, however, guides us to a clarity of truth.


There is nothing like knowing someone who is the beautiful mixture of heart, soul and humanness. It’s even better when you love that someone and you get to quickly forgive their imperfections because of how fucking perfect they are. They toil, they quake and they are afraid but mostly they are loving, supportive and more courageous than they will ever likely know.

Treasure those moments when you can just sit back and watch. Those tears clouding your eyes and the joy in your heart are often all you ever will need to know about life. It’s not pride you feel in those moments of clarity; it’s pure admiration.


Use your imagination for a moment.

Imagine you are watching TV. Who do you want next to you keeping you warm? Where are you? That’s the person you should be with and that is the place you should be sharing.


I wrote an entire chapter to my new book while in the shower this morning. I love when that happens, and it’s even better when I finally have the chance to write it down. Someday.