suffering

Author as a toddler

Write it, my son

In the darkest moment, when nothing remained, a blinding light arrived. That light was not born from outside, but came from within. This is the raw account of hitting rock bottom and finding unexpected grace.

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Struggling

The struggle is real. I’m struggling to breathe, to find the wide open spaces I once enjoyed. I’m struggling to understand, to make sense of what is happening around me. Mostly, I’m struggling to grasp […]

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A Solid Truth

Through the numbness gaze I see Cloudy, murky, beholden to the current Leaning, listing, the stormy sky emblazoned Calmly, the whitecaps form.   Through the blinded folds of skin I feel Nothing, lost moments, surrounded […]

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I Long for Winter

I walk along trying to find the mindless footprints I’ve cast in the hardened bedrock of my life; wondering why some fear the sturdiness of this place, why they search for escape by looking for the invisible tracks they swear they left behind.

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What Absolutely Beautiful Ugliness I Am

I guess when I look back I realize that the weatherman doesn’t always need to be right, and that sometimes it is just perfect to get soaked to the bone when science says the sun should be shining.

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