In the finite sands of THAT time She called, she came, she wanted She took me She left me She took me again And now I laugh as a lump of flesh on her bed Never wanting to leave Never wanting to say a word But the unbridled truth within me. Do I give myself to the One? Or do I save myself for something I will never find? Those demons, ah those demons Fucking with me even in my moments of joy Teaching me what I want By giving me what I don’t Tying me up in the web of my own design Leaving me for dead Fighting desperately as I cling to hope of salvation. As the sun sets and the horizon comes alive with color I sit in subtle gray Wondering about that moment when I knew That moment when I saw her And realized that the quiver in my legs Was not from fear alone. I wonder what I have to offer this woman I search, look, ask and struggle And I find nothing but the hope in my own eyes. Through the night I toss and turn Looking for the dream to bring me joy I reach for her, nothing This is not her affair This is mine and mine alone And this weight alone I will bear So I stare into the void in my own mind And wonder if I can defeat it To show her the love that is me beyond this thought. Alone I watch the Sun bring itself to view The wonders of nature stir the Soul within As the music of the Heavens awakens the rest of me Head pounding I take a weakened look At the empty spot residing next to me And I can see her there A figment of my imagination Or my heart begging for a reprieve? To that I think the answer lies somewhere in between. In missing her I find the pathway to my heart I hope and pray the answer we will find In our next meeting When in the finite sands of another time She calls to me, she comes, she wants She takes me She keeps me To take me yet again And we laugh as crumpled mounds of flesh on her bed Never wanting to leave Never having to say a word Yet knowing the unbridled truth within us.